Friday, August 30, 2013

Five on Friday!

Hello again! It's Friday! Woo woo!

1. Baby girl is 3 months today! I cannot believe it! She has been growing up so fast and it's pretty bittersweet. She laughed for the first time the other day and it was AMAZING! So cute. Happy 3 month birthday Ava Kae!

2. I finally got a chance to go to Sephora and pick out a new foundation! When I got there, an employee matched my skin using their new Color IQ system, which was pretty cool! It only took a few minutes and I was given my skin number. I decided to try the TARTE Amazonian Clay 12-Hour Full Coverage Foundation in Ivory. I like it ok, so far. It's a little drying after wearing it all day, but it does have good coverage and it's buildable, which I like. 

3. Halloween is just around the corner and I am so excited to make/buy Ava her first costume!! I'm thinking I will dress her as Little Red Riding-hood, I will dress as the grandma, and Travis will dress as the Big Bad Wolf! It's going to be AWESOME!

4. We just ordered our first month of Citrus Lane, which is a fun monthly box filled with goodies for your child, ages 0-3 yrs. I'm pretty excited to receive our first box in September! Citrus Lane boxes are $25 per month and are a different theme each month. For instance, the theme in August was "Back to School". When you sign up, you put your child's birthdate and gender and they start sending boxes that are geared towards your child's age. Ava will be getting a box for four month olds. I also used a coupon code to get my first month half off: TAKEHALF

5. My husband and I are going to attempt to start the Insanity workout tomorrow. I've tried it before, so I know how intense it is. Lately, I have wanted to try to get into shape but have had NO motivation, whatsoever. I'm just tired of feeling like I look horrible and I want to do something about it. We already own the program, so why not use it!? Hopefully I keep up with it.

Have a great Friday!!

Friday, August 23, 2013

Five on Friday!

This is my first Five on Friday post! I'm excited to link up with this project every Friday and talk about five things that I've been thinking about, talking about, loving, etc.! so, here it goes!

1. I am in the market for new foundation! I REALLY want to go to Sephora soon to check out some new makeup because my acne has returned since being pregnant. It's super weird that it went away while I was pregnant but came back with a vengeance after I had Ava. Makes me a little sad. But I'm interested in a few different types of foundation, such as Clinique Even Better Makeup SPF 15TARTE Amazonian Clay 12-Hour Full Coverage Foundation SPF 15, and BENEFIT COSMETICS 'Hello Flawless!' Oxygen Wow Liquid Foundation.

2. I've been working on new headbands for my Etsy shop, Little Voice Designs! They are really cute and really affordable! I am just starting this shop so there are only a few things listed, but soon there will be more!

3. Ava Kae has been smiling up a storm and I am loving it! She is so happy all the time and I just know she is very close to laughing. She does this funny cough noise when she wants attention and it is the cutest thing ever! 

4. I know I'm not the only one who is ridiculously excited for this one. I am OBSESSED with pumpkin flavored everything! Pumpkin Spice Chai, pumpkin pie, pumpkin flavored coffee...YUM! I'm so happy Fall is almost here. I can feel it in the air sometimes! 
5. Speaking of birthday is in September and my parents recently asked me what I wanted for my gift. I have NO IDEA. Maybe money for a date night with Travis? Or a chance to get away for a weekend? Or a gift card? I don't know why it is so hard to think of something when someone asks you what you want but it is very easy to think of things you want when it's not your birthday or a gift-giving holiday. After having Ava, I almost feel guilty getting anything. Anyone else feel this way, too?
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Have a great Friday!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Ava's Birth Story Part Two

Continued from Ava's Birth Story Part One

Travis finally showed up (my Aunt got a hold of him while I was being checked) and I was wheeled into a delivery room where they hooked me up to some more monitors. One nurse tried to put my IV in, but I was writhing in pain so much that she blew my vein. I was finally allowed to push and I pushed with all my might! What felt like an hour of pushing was actually three hours, which I later found out when talking to Travis about what he witnessed. (The entire thing, from the first contraction to Ava being born, was around 4 hours. I've heard this is rare since she is my first!)

Then, with one final push, out she came at 9:06 pm weighing 9 lbs 12.3 oz and measuring at 21 inches long! No, that's not a typo, she really was almost 10 lbs. She squeezed right on out of my body and into the doctors arms. She cried as soon as she came out, which was wonderfully loud! Ava was plopped onto my chest and Travis cut the cord after we waited for it to stop pulsing. Everything was so surreal and it all felt like I was watching someone else go through it.

She was perfectly healthy and beautiful. I was neither of those. I was pushing so hard that my eyes became swollen and bloodshot from burst blood vessels. I couldn't see straight for at least two hours after the birth because I was squeezing my eyes shut so tightly with every push. Ava came out of me so suddenly, that she gave me a 4th degree tear, which is about as fun as it sounds. I won't go into detail about what exactly tore, but let's just say that it is the worst tear you can get. My doctor even told me that I had the definition of a 4th degree tear. Fabulous. Anyways, she stitched me right up and we went to our room to recover. We stayed there for two nights and it was amazing. The nurses and staff were so helpful!

It was an amazing experience and a little traumatic for me. Many things did not go as I "planned" but I wouldn't change any of it! Truthfully, I am planning on waiting at least three years before I get pregnant again. Ava is now almost three months old and is wonderful!

Daddy holding Ava

My mom taking a photo of Ava

Holy moly that's a big baby!

She had HUGE cheeks!

Sticking her tongue out at the camera.

Sweet baby :)

She makes the funniest faces!

Thank you for reading!

Ava's Birth Story Part One

I have wanted to write Ava's story for a while now and I figured, what better place to do it? I love reading birth stories and I've realized that each are so wonderfully different and special in their own way. Ava's story is no exception. I still cannot believe how it all happened. So, here it is! It's long, so I've written it in parts. Here is part one:

Thursday, May 30th, 2013:

My husband, Travis, was working and my grandparents came into town to keep me company while we waited for Ava's arrival. I had been feeling pretty down because Ava was already four days late and I felt like she was never going to come out. I would sigh and tell Travis, "She is never going to come out of me!" and he would sarcastically reply, "Nope. She's going to stay in there until she's one and she's probably going to have teeth!" Anyways, my grandparents came up to stay a while and my aunt was flying in the next day. I was not having any contractions and I felt like I was going to be pregnant forever, which would not even be a little bit fun.

Friday, May 31, 2013:

I had my 41 week appointment with my midwife. My grandparents came along with us since Travis was going to have to leave early to go to work. When we arrived I peed in my last cup, was weighed, and asked the same old questions. My midwife measured my belly and listened to the heartbeat like she had for every other appointment. She then asked how everything was going and I told her that I hadn't really felt Ava move that day. She was a little concerned and told me I needed to get an ultra sound just to make sure Ava was ok. So, off we went across the hall, where we waited for half an hour to be seen. By then, Travis had to leave to get to work so my Grandma came in with me to get the ultra sound done. Ava looked great! She was breathing and everything looked fine, but she still wasn't moving much. My grandparents and I went back to my midwife and gave her the results and she still wasn't satisfied. She told me to go downstairs and eat and drink something sugary and then head over to Labor and Delivery to be hooked up to monitors and see what the issue was.
One of the last pictures of me pregnant. 
I went and got some Subway and my grandparents left to go pick up my aunt from the air port. I was exhausted by this time! I was 10 months pregnant and I had been walking all over that hospital! But, I trekked on! After I finished eating and calling my mom to help calm my nerves, I went to Labor and Delivery and got hooked up. A friend, who is a nurse in Labor and Delivery, was actually working the front desk and came and talked with me and that helped me keep calm. I was given fluids and then the Doctor came in to look at the monitoring and talk with me. She said I was dehydrated and the fluids would help perk Ava up. My grandparents and aunt had arrived, by then, and I was ready to go home and rest!

When we got home, everyone wanted to go shopping but I was so tired from the days somewhat unnerving adventure, that I took a nap. They came back around 5:00 pm and I heard them come in so I grunted and moaned out of bed and I felt something go POP!POP! but nothing came out so I thought it might have been more of my mucus plug. So, I hobbled down the stairs to meet them. We talked for a bit and I needed to do some laundry, so I hobbled back up the stairs! When I leaned over to put the clothes in the washer, I felt a horrible cramp. I went back downstairs and told them what I felt and both my Grandma and Aunt thought I was having contractions but said to wait a little while and see if I had another one. Sure enough, I had another cramp that was twice as painful as the first. I believe I have a pretty high pain tolerance, and when I had that second contraction I was in tears. It was BAD. I started timing the contractions and they were about 7 minutes apart, so I called the doctor I had just seen earlier that day. She told me to wait to go to the hospital until the contractions were 3-5 minutes apart. Not even ten minutes after I hung up with the doctor, my contractions were two minutes apart. By this time, I was in the bathroom, on the toilet because I was leaking fluid, crying my eyes out. My Aunt was telling me, through the door, "Madison, we need to go. Come out, we need to go to the hospital. Come on!" I was so scared and in SO MUCH pain, it was unbelievable. My body was pushing Ava out and I could NOT stop it! In my sudden insanity, caused by the pain, I rushed upstairs to get my last minute items (which I never used) and my Aunt followed me wondering what the heck I was doing. She still makes fun of me for doing this! Ha!

Off we went! We all piled into my grandparents car. Lucky for me, I was the only one who knew how to get to the hospital, so I had to give my Grandma directions while having contractions every minute, trying not to push, and trying to call Travis to tell him what was happening. Let me tell you, it was not easy! We eventually made it and my Aunt helped wheel me up to Labor and Delivery, where they greeted me with, "Weren't you just here?" (By the way, the elevator ride up was about as awkward as could be. Just imagine me having contractions in a full elevator with people trying not to stare at me while I was crying and trying to keep the baby in.) The nurses could see that I was in a lot of pain and took me to the triage room to check my cervix. A nurse brought me into the bathroom to change into my not-so-lovely gown, but I couldn't even get out of my clothes before Ava was trying to push out of me again. She was visibly shocked when I told her I was pushing and rushed to get me changed and onto the bed. Another nurse checked me and exclaimed, "Oh, you're already at an 8 or 9!" I immediately knew what this meant....I was NOT getting an epidural. I was devastated. I was in SO much pain and just wanted it to go away. Before this day, I didn't even really want an epidural. I wanted to try for a natural delivery, but I was still open minded and knew I would get an epidural if I needed it. Well, I was out of luck. I still proceeded to beg the nurses for any kind of medication, but they refused because I was already so far along and it could hurt the baby. Tons of nurses flew into the room as soon as they heard I was so far along.

Sunday, August 18, 2013


I've started this blog to help document what goes on in my family's life. Hopefully, I can keep up with it but, who am I kidding, being a momma is HARD! It is a daily struggle and a daily blessing. Even after almost three months, it is weird to think that I am in charge of another human being. I have the responsibility of taking care of this person, molding them and teaching them how to live a good life. I am constantly thinking how crazy fast my pregnancy went. I cannot believe Ava is already almost three months old! She's smiling, almost laughing, and I think she's already showing signs of teething!

She's pretty amazing!

I really want to use these posts to talk about what being a mom is like. Hopefully, I can help other moms (or soon-to-be moms) with tips that I come across. I would love for some tips, as well! Also, I LOVE to be creative, so I plan on posting DIY projects, recipes, organizing tips, you name it!

I hope that this blog helps me gain confidence in being a mom. I have been struggling with actually having confidence in leaving the house, since Ava was born. I am not naturally a person who is comfortable being by themselves. Yes, I know I am not technically alone. Ava is ALWAYS with me, but it's different. She doesn't talk to me. I talk to her all the time, but it's still different. Also, it is not easy lugging all of her stuff around, even with my husband helping. Anyways, I want to be able to go out and explore the world with her! I really want to walk to the park or go to stores. I just haven't mustered up the nerves to do so quite yet. I think I'm just scared that she will have a melt down while I'm out and I will be overwhelmed. But, being overwhelmed is ok sometimes, right?

Lastly, I really would like to use this space to motivate myself to lose this baby weight...and a few extra pounds from before I was pregnant, too!

So, I hope you will join me! I will try to post as frequently as possible!